Once again, it's about time to do some reflecting. Today's Sunday and we're in the middle of Indian Summer kind of. Sometimes it doesn't take a lot to realize how happy one is. Sometimes happiness is so pervasive that even the blind know what's going on. I've just seen 'Reality Bites', one of these non-comittal but still touching movies grasping what it was all about growing up in the 90ies. It's Maren's favorite flick and I just had to borrow it so I could enter the time warp and get back to 1994. Especially the Troy-Dyer-character portrayed by Ethan Hawke ... that's so me, not as far as looks are concerned, of course, but when it comes to producing edgy remarks that tend to go beyond sarcasm, all signs of someone being slightly dissatisfied with how things are going globally, the course our world's been taking ... that's just me, I guess. This philosopher dude hiding out on the couch spreading his thoughts from a safe and distant spot ... it's me - again. But even the hapless creatures get their slice of happiness eventually. So it's Ethan getting his Winona as much as Mario got his Georg.

Even though we've been going through a rough patch, having a thorough look over the edge - that's exactly where we've been standing couple of weeks ago - we're back on track bathing in the light all over again. Precisely speaking, what we're sharing right now is even better than our first few weeks seeing things through rose-tinted spectacles. I guess, we just had to discover each other's edges and insecurities as much as we had to find a way of integrating the shadows as well. It's amazing how much you can actually learn from someone in the course of barely three months. Call me crazy, but I seem to be feeling that Georg kind of came down, grew calmer, more at ease with himself and his surroundings. And the same thing goes for me. We both came to realize that there's no need to impress the other one any longer. We impress each other in myriad ways, and we do it the most when we least try to by just being our true selves. Gosh, putting it in words makes it sound so simplistic - and it actually is as easy as that. Even Michael claimed that I seem to be doing Georg a world of good like a rock in the ocean, someone to get back to regardless of the weather at sea. Here's your safe spot. I actually relish in the fact that there's finally someone who needs me. I remember now that in the beginning I was constantly expecting Georg to tell me the 'big three,' whereas the truth of the matter is that this guy has his very own ways of expressing even more than some corny words the TV taught us to blurt out like formulae. Now I know what it feels like having someone let you know that he is glad that you are there in the world, part of his life. It's the most rewarding thing when something like that happens to you. I remember saying to Simon months ago that we'll just have to wait and see how things turn out between me and Georg. That was when he wanted to wish us well over the summer and I was like 'If we survive the summer, then this thing really has a chance to grow into something significant!' Summer is slowly fading out and we're still together. This goes to say that I'm confident right now. I feel like being part of something special and outstanding.

I am just happy about the way things are right now, and I mean that in general. I love my flat, my friends in Graz, I so look forward to going back to university and I love my boyfriend. I've got a job, I've got money, literature and parks, beer and Kisch, some talent and certain glimpses into future goings-on. What else can anyone ask of the world? Not much, I guess ...