Well, it's official. I'm a Drama Queen. I have this idiotic tendency to make a mole out of a mountainhill. Blow things up? Totally me. Exaggerate? Totally me. Fussing about for nothing? Totally me. I feel kind of embarrassed and don't know why I sometimes over-react. What is it, this force that makes me blow my top whenever I feel something's not right? My answer these days is: my penchant for drama is gonna make me rich some day. But the thing is, there's a difference between being dramatic on paper so as to come up with some narrative, and being dramatic in one's personal life. I seem to have some distortion as far as reality's concerned, seem to interpret things too much. I see things where there really is not that much to see. Weird anyway. I don't know what to make of this myself. All I know is that I've got to stop it seeing that I have offended a few people recently on account of this very special behaviour of mine. It's not a nice thing to be too rude with too many people, too much of an adult, too expecting. One can actually be too straightforward. There's a point when straightforwardness becomes nothing but offensive and insulting, and it hurts people. So, this is my fault. I'm not proud of it but I can't help it either. It's my parents who gave me this temper ;-)

Different issue. I'm encircled by a huge bunch of people who I really feel for and like a lot. I am happy about that. I am happy about the very fact that Graz has become the new Linz (by the way, I love those sayings, such as "X is the new Y" *gg). At any rate, even though there are these people, as of late I really feel a little stressed out keeping everybody satisfied in terms of spare time and partying and going for coffee and stuff. It's become too much. My day has only 24 hours to offer and I've got to go to uni. I take that seriously. I gotta work. I've got a boyfriend. I've got a flat to take care of and I've got to be on my own in between, too. But lately there's been way too less time for just ME. And the thing is that I turn really cross and stressed out whenever people tear at me though they mean no harm. But I lose that "me-feeling" as soon as I don't get the chance to actually spend some time with me & myself. And I love to spend time with myself. It's important to me and always has been. So there's changes to come, just some interim stuff so I'll feel a little less stressed out and little bit more like me ...