Sorry, but today I feel kind of talkative - in a webblog sense. Just watched the final episode of the OC where it all comes to an end. Believe it or not, but some scenes actually made my eyes water. How pathetic is that given that it's one of the crappiest TV-shows to ever air on American television? *gg* But still, after a long day of lectures and stuff at uni, there's nothing better to get irrigated than corny and predictable soap opera. Well, ok I haven't been to uni today but still handled quite some workload. I did some translating again and Julia's thesis is finished now. Talking about uni, after two weeks I finally get some grip on things again. Friday was actually the first day when I felt at ease again with everything. Before that I felt kind of stressed out, getting up that early after all and hastening from one lecture hall to the next really did kind of get to me at first. What I really do love about uni is that for once in my life I can really say that I am where I want to be, that I immerse myself in exactly the right things for me and, besides, that I am surrounded by plenty of great people. On Friday I had that lecture on British Culture (history & society) again with professor Wolf. He's got himself a somewhat bad reputation but frankly speaking I appreciate him a lot. He does have the right appearance and demeanour, he's competent as hell and he's even funny in between some of his lines. Ok, he might be a little strict and unfair to some students but as far as I can see he's one of those rare professors where you actually learn something, one of those you gotta cling on to. I adore that guy. Now hate me, I don't care. Another thing is the literary studies pro-seminar with Mrs. Schultermandl. Well, everyone knows that I am this gigantic fan of hers. I mean, she's just perfect. She has a good sense of humour, her methodology is state-of-the-art, she appreciates students and nurtures in them a sense of and taste for literature. What more can one ask of? Given that she's my prof now for the third time in a row - I had her in the introductory courses as well - we kind of know a thing or two about each other. She jokes about her dislexic weaknesses and we were even joking about zodiac signs. I often join her in her office and just talk about random stuff, not just American literature. Of course, she helped me a lot with my seminar papers, too, ensuring me to get on the right track. I really appreciate her a great deal. Quite honestly, I even consider her for aiding me in writing my bachelor paper, plus a possible master thesis. I already instigated her to see to it that she can be my assistant in writing a paper about Beat Poetry concerning Kerouac, Ginsbergh, Burroughs and the likes. Oh, that would be so majorly, positively, absolutely and totally grand. I just love those authors regardless of their substance abuse or sexual issues. Spontaneous prose as they coined the term is just something that I'm a total fanatic of. Funny thing is that this week I realized that I possibly won't finish the media sciences stuff. I'm already doing some courses but realizing that the overall scheme is pretty much about constantly presenting stuff in front of crowds made me make up my mind and it goes like this: I am not a public person. I never will be and I don't have to be. It's just that uni and the area of work in general kind of conveys the image that skills on this level are part and parcel of success. Well, in my case, this is bullshit. I realized that I should continue to pursue what I do best, and that is writing on actual paper, outlining arguments and mixing up the most disparate topics. That's where I've always been good at and probably always will be. And there's still so much to enhance on. I really should use those professors that I actually bond with and benefit from them in terms of writing academic stuff and who knows one day I might be publishing in the very same journal as Walter Hölbling, Silvia Schultermandl or Klaus Rieser. I mean, to hell, why not? This is not something that is out of my league. Maybe right now but things might change over the years. Actually, the very thought of compiling anthologies along with them or even publishing a whole book on my own is a thrilling fantasy. I really do think that not only am I good at drumming up stories that have a more creative edge. No, I'm good at a mere fact-writing as well. I can do that and I enjoy doing the research, reading tons of books and articles and make references to them in my own writing. I really do see myself in an academic spotlight. Whatever the actual focus will be, time will tell, I guess.

One more thing and then I'm off for today: Bloc Party's "So Here We Are" seems to be somewhat of an anthem for me. It's one of those songs that keeps on accompanying me on and on and on. I remember having made that song the main theme of one of my screenplays. There are certain scenes in that script that instantly spring to mind whenever I listen to it - even now years after having finished the script. That's funny to me ...

Cheerio. Good night!